- remembering that administrative barriers are only pieces of paper and phone calls and forms and I am bigger than those.
- trying to say how much I care about the folks in my life in real time and not trying to be a big bad solitary puffer fish
- Centering work and learning and living around a political consciousness of compassion
- keeping tabs on the foods and water I need to consume in order to survive because living off of the fumes hasn’t been working
- Adhering to radical narcissism and taking a complement like the graceful fuck that I am.
- Allowing myself to get excited and foolish and silly and laugh, in the presence of other people or not
- psyching myself up and up and up for what is to come and school and futures near and far and whatever comes out of it
- saying exactly what I mean and what I feel if I so choose to bother to indulge this information at all
- taking a moment or two to step back and plan sentences and prepare myself whenever necessary but also
- accepting that being relaxed is not inherently who I am. I am frantic and I fidget and I buzz around and that is how I like it. That’s okay and I don’t want to feel guilty for it. Whether this is attributed to deep-set facets of my identity or my illness or my childish need to impress is of no importance.
- Speaking up when something bothers me in any way or form I can handle so I stop stewing in my own puddles of frustration and the things-I-just-can’t-let-go-of.
Even if it pisses people off.
- I can seek validation if I need it. It’s not the worst thing to want to need and that happens sometimes.
- be active and present in my life and the things I do and the people I surround myself with. Commit to less so I can provide all that I can to everything else.
- embrace the new and the changing of seasons and maybe I can get something out of that too.
Anyhow, that’s it. Good talk kaylee